"D" for drunkard

Dad came home drunk. Cleared up his messed before Xara came back. She bought home a box of hair dye and I just finished dying it for her. I can't fall asleep. Stress is keeping me up I guess. I wanna go to the beach and get real drunk. Somehow I need to calm myself down. It seems to me that you've moved on. Maybe I shouldn't use the word "moved on". We never started in the first place. Anyways its non of my business. What's left to do is to forget you completely. If theres nothing to make me forget then resorting to something else should be my best option. There's this saying "Be Dead And To Rise From The Dead". I'm sure you understand that.

Would You Be There

If I were blue, would you be there for me
And whisper in my ears that's okay
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight
And say you love me one more time

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me
And touch my lips with tender loving care
Would you die for me, would you run with me
And never look back...

Would you be there to love, to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one 
To take my breath away

Would you be there to love, to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one 
To take my breath away

Would you be there...

If I am away, would you still think of me
And wished that you could hold me now
Would you die for me, would you run with me
All the way...

Would you be there to love, to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one 
To take my breath away

Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you always be there
To kiss my pain away

Would you be there to love, to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one 
To take my breath away

Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you always be there
To kiss my pain away


Would you be there... For me...

Let Go

Every time I found the words to say
What I thought would make things okay
I kept it all inside
Slowly drowning in my pride
I never could admit my own mistakes
Somehow I thought things would fall into place
And I made a change too late

Here, past all the lights
Where everything's clear
Nothing seems to change
How I love you and now
You're gonna leave
I'm just slowly dying here inside
Trying to let go

Maybe I just thought I had you here
I thought that you would not go anywhere
I abused my position and I didn't care
And now that you no longer turn to me
And it seems that you got over me
I can hardly breathe
You no longer need me
I'm just sorry I found out late but all the choices I Made I thought of me
And not how it'd be to watch you walk away
I know I'll never make it right but everyday I try
In hopes you might come back you're where my heart's at
I have to find a way

Here, past all the lights
Where everything's clear
Nothing seems to change
How I love you and now
You're gonna leave
I'm just slowly dying here inside
Trying to let go

And every time I think of you
It's hard for me to think of what I can do
I used to have you here beside me
I just want you here beside me baby
How can the sun keep shining
When my whole body's crying
I know I never told you why
I need you in my life

whoa whoa whoa~

Here, past all the lights
Where everything's clear
Nothing seems to change
How I love you and now
You're gonna leave
I'm just slowly dying here inside
Trying to let go

"M" for missing

Darkness isn't the absence of light. It's the absence of you.

I've been missing you all this while. Its driving me crazy. Tears flowing down within me every time I think of you. Whats gotten into me? I wanna move on but somehow somethings are holding me back, I wanna say I'm sorry but it seems pointless. I wonder if you still remember the things you said to me? I guess its all a lie you told to make me feel better. I have no one to blame but  myself. You didn't ruined anything, I did. I've learned that love is one sided. I'll eventually walk out from it but I guess in the meantime, time is all need. I hope you find someone better, someone who deserves you more than I do.

"S" for studying

The bitterness of studying is preferable to the bitterness of ignorance

English and Math tuition given by  "XARA" gonna start real soon. STUDY STUDY STUDY!!  

"F" for friendship

Good friends make life sweet
Respect fun and love are the treats
True friendship never end
We're always good FRIENDs

Cute or WHAT?

Never wear anything that panics the cat. ~P.J.O'Rourke

I Wanted You

Lately I've been thinking about what I can do

I've been stressing to fall back in love with you

I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through

But I can't go on this way. I've got to stop it babe

You've been wonderful in all that you can be

But it hurts when you say that you understand me

So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall

I wanted you to see me through it all

I wanted you to be the one I loved

I wanted you, I wanted you

I wanted you to hold me in my sleep

I wanted you to show me what I need

I wanted you to know just how down deep

I wanted you, I wanted you

I've been pushing hard to open up the door

Trying to take us back to where we were before

But I'm done. I just can't do this anymore

'Cuz we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now

We've been walking around in circles for some time

And I think we should head for the finish line

So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall

I wanted you to see me through it all

I wanted you to be the one I loved

I wanted you, I wanted you

I wanted you to hold me in my sleep

I wanted you to show me what I need

I wanted you to know just how down deep 

I wanted you, I wanted you

I, I.. I'm so sorry baby

But I, I.. I gotta pack up and leave

But I, I'll always remember how we came close

..to being how I wanted to be

I wanted you baby

I wanted you

I wanted you to be there when I fall

I wanted you to see me through it all

I wanted you to be the one I loved

I wanted you, I wanted you

I wanted you to hold me in my sleep

I wanted you to show me what I need

I wanted you to know just how down deep

I wanted you, I wanted you

"N" for nonsense

English listening paper was like "N" for nonsense!! The narrator was like an angmoh with Indian accent. Some of us find it quite manageable were'as some find it hard to understand. To friends who find the paper hard all I can say is we've given our best so don't look back but forward. Supposed to help Xara with her luggage at Mabel's house but instead she went out to meet Fad and friends. Chinese LC is just 16hours 50minutes away. I'm tired and I'm going to bed but before I go...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUZANN!!